Monday, October 20, 2003
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I Need You Here
Color It Red
How can I choose the words to tell you
Words I should've said before?
Now more and more I long to hold you
I wish you'd never close the door
Now it's late and I feel older
Having lost so much to you
And though I kow everything is over
How I wish it could be true
That you would stay
Oh no, a love like yours won't come my way
I need you here when darkness comes
I want you near before I turn and run
I need you here when darkness comes
I beg you here before I turn and run
You gave me hope then gave me tears
Though I could never blame you
I'm calling out but no one hears
How I wish it cold be true
That you would stay
Oh no, a love like your won't come my way
I need you here when darkness comes
I want you near before I turn and run
I need you here when darkness comes
I beg you here before I turn and run
...at every moment of our lives, we all have one foot in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss... - Paolo Coelho, "Eleven Minutes"
Migs, 7:58 PM
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If I Didn't Love You
Tina Arena
So good
When it's good I wanna spend my whole life lovin' you
But I'm tired
And you don't know how close I've come to leaving you
You try my patience
And you race me to the wire
It takes every ounce of my will and desire
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you like crazy
If I didn't love you baby
As much as I do
I'd just walk out the door
I couldn't take it anymore
I wouldn't put up with what you put me through
If I didn't love you
It's hard
But you won't give up 'till you
Push me to the wall
But I know
You're the only one who'll be there for me
When I call (oh yes you will)
I can't help believing
That it's worth it somehow
Cause I've worked too damn hard
To wanna give up now
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you like crazy
If I didn't love you baby
As much as I do
I'd just walk out the door
I couldn't take it anymore
I wouldn't put up with what you put me through
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you
Nah, If I didn't
If I didn't love you like I do
When you love someone
Nothings black or white
When the riptide runs
There's no wrong or right
I'll sail with you but I'll refuse to drown
So don't you take me down, down
Take me down down
Don't you take me down, down, down
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you
I'd walk out that door
I don't need it anymore
Need to put up with what you put me through
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you
If I didn't love you like I do o o o
I'd walk out that door
I'm not comin' back no more
No more
...at every moment of our lives, we all have one foot in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss... - Paolo Coelho, "Eleven Minutes"
Migs, 7:28 PM
Monday, October 13, 2003
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Normally I do not bear grudges. If ever I do, they don't last. I don't usually have particular vendettas against anyone either. It's just not me. And I've always seen myself as someone who can be very forgiving. Often enough I'm willing to forgive, and sometimes even forget. As in really forget. But sometimes, some acts are just too loathsome. Sometimes, circumstances are just so hateful that one wants to torture and mangle and mutilate someone. Sometimes, something strikes so deep and causes so much pain that it leaves a scar on one's being, and that hurt just drives one mad with rage and revenge. At least once in your life, you'll run into someone who just brings out the worst in you. You will say,do, think and feel things you never thought you would. All because that person somehow tainted something very precious to you, and in effect severely tainted you as well. Can you forgive such a person? Can you even bear to see that person and not wanna return all the pain he caused tenfold, and unleash all your hatred and loathing on that person?
I think only God can do so. And even God throws people into hell.
...at every moment of our lives, we all have one foot in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss... - Paolo Coelho, "Eleven Minutes"
Migs, 9:34 PM
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
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The Fool Known as Human
Have you ever said to yourself that you'd do something, but never do it? And then tell yourself, with more resolve, to do something, but still end up not doing it? Or practically vow to yourself with heaven, earth, and the powers that be as your witness that you would carry out some self-improving scheme that you could never pull off? Of course you have! Everyone has at some point, for sure. Maybe you're sick of it, maybe you just laugh it off. But it can be tragic.
People love satisfying their insatiable ids and their petty whims as often as they can. All with hardly a thought for any potential consequences. Then lightning strikes, and they fry. They cry, they mourn, they wail, they tear their hair out and beat their breasts in lamentation. And then they resolve to avoid whatever disastrous shenanigans they'd been getting themselves into. Sure, they come clean for a while. Then temptation, the most talented seductress, comes knocking on the fragile doors of their hearts, and they crumble. Soon they're in their old wretched reverie again. And for what? More disaster.
Maybe humans are born naturally masochistic. They live for pain. They pleasure themselves to no particular end, and get hurt. Then they shrug it off and find more ways of hurting themselves. They actually find that vicious cycle very pleasurable. They cannot understand and refuse to accept that the most pleasurable things are also the most insidious. Well, maybe they accept that the consequences bring twice as much pain as it does pleasure, but they simply don't care. Why? Because at the critical moment, it feels good. So what if the next hours, days, weeks, months or years get all fucked up? It doesn't matter.
Live the moment. A "brave man" doesn't live long but a coward doesn't live at all. Sure, wise words. But easily twisted to give people an excuse to screw themselves up and feel good about it. But then in the end these same people either waste away or commit suicide. It just goes to show that human beings never learn.
No, that human beings refuse to.
...at every moment of our lives, we all have one foot in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss... - Paolo Coelho, "Eleven Minutes"
Migs, 6:49 PM